Unfortunately I ended up vanishing for awhile after I thought I would be back. I honestly had every intention too, because I miss creating art. Whether it's writing, taking pictures, drawing, or anything else. Not to mention I miss sharing it with all of you. I miss learning about fellow artists whether it's about their lives, techniques, or just those connections you make with people on the other side of the world. People you'd never get to speak with normally if not for places like this, or the internet, you know?

But I've come to realize that a big part of my problem is the depression that surfaces a lot. I'm sure many of you can relate because we all grow up with our own problems. Whether it's at home, at school, or wherever else. Where you just drown in the emotions to the point you just don't feel like doing anything at all. I could have been drawing this entire time or gone out to take pictures, but I just haven't felt like it which is pretty sad. I miss it though and I'm beginning to think I just need to force myself to.

But it could also be because my memory is terrible these days, which I've only come to realize recently that it's possible I'm constantly stressed. Though I may not have noticed since I keep forgetting. But my chest pains are back on a daily basis I think. I can't remember last week or anything that happened before it (aside from bits and pieces). Heck, I barely remember yesterday. So of course if I want to go home and draw something for someone or do something important, I tend to forget before I ever make it there. I'm working on trying to rectify this though to see if it makes a difference. I'm not exactly fond of taking medicine.

It's funny how as you go through life you realize more and more how little you know. Not just about the world around you but about yourself, or is that just me?

Do any of you battle with things like these? What do you do to fight it? What do you suggest?

Unfortunately since I haven't been around for awhile I don't have anything to feature just yet but I'm hoping to stick around this time and have more to share next time I feel like there was something else I was going to say.. but I already forgot it. I'll make an edit though if I remember. My apologies! I hope all of you are well overall. I'd love to see what you've been working on as well so I'd love to see any work you'd like to share with me For anyone that read this far down, it means a lot. I know a wall of text is often rather intimidating

EDIT: I remember! I went through and emptied out my inbox so I'm hoping to keep more up to date with anything new! If you left any comments that involved a response I will be getting to those soon. My apologies though for how long it's taken me to get back to you! If I missed you somehow though, please feel free to send me a message or leave a comment!